Is it Depression?

Depression is a strong word. But, what is this feeling I’ve had for the past few weeks? I feel unsettled, I feel sad, I feel unsure of many things. Life feels precarious. And I’ve had to ask myself lately… am I depressed? I’m sure there is a spectrum, and maybe there’s a better word. But, life can feel really hard sometimes. The state of the world feels sad right now and the future feels more uncertain than ever before.

Personally, life feels heavy. We had a big move that required an adjustment, the holidays and my birthday came and went, personal dramas were present throughout. I’ve just felt down, and it’s hard to know how to get myself out of it. I know that sometimes there is nothing you can do but move through the emotions. I know that I won’t always feel this way, and I feel grateful for that.

Now that I am back in the swing of things after our company end of year shutdown, I’m feeling better about being back in my routine. I’m able to create more time and structure around my daily gratitude lists and journaling. I do have so much to be grateful for every day. I am healthy, my family is healthy, and we are well provided for.

Below is my latest laptop background to help remind me that things are okay. Life can be hard but we have to take it day at a time. My therapist reminded me of this yesterday… only focus on the 24 hours you have in front of you and remember that we cannot control outcomes. We can only focus on the tasks right in front of us.